1. Where I first ate love. What the fast girl says -- In this foul alley -- I will see their teeth -- What we did after my mother's mastectomy -- My mother as Humpty Dumpty -- School teacher's breast cancer -- Bugs -- Leech -- On the night they apply leeches to my mother's makeshift breast I take you into my mouth -- The feeding -- Maturation -- Greed -- Pride -- Killer -- Magic -- Cancer -- 2. 69 Rose Street. Monsters -- Nudity -- Weird leg -- 69 Rose Street -- Privacy -- Real girl -- Meat -- Sweet -- The world in my mother's hair -- One of us -- Whores -- I was once a bell -- Favors -- What a kid could live through -- Giving Charles Bukowski my leg -- 3. Woman without skin. Woman without skin -- Maps -- One night with a stranger at 30 -- I am weird to the new boys -- Want -- The things we do alone -- The orgasm I didn't have -- Did you say tramp? -- If you have sex with your friend -- Censor -- Real writer -- 4. Monsters and other lovers. Monsters and other lovers -- Hungry -- When I go without sex -- Where my spider had been -- Itch -- Crank -- Substitute -- Threat -- MFA Program -- New York City, in freshly painted elevator with old woman and dog -- A woman writing a play -- Walls -- Sweaty roses -- Aspirin -- Her spot -- Cutting yourself.